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Friday, September 24, 2010

I could really use a wish right now...

Very tired.
Still waiting.
Stupidly waiting.

A combination of lady gaga and resident evil.

ga-ga-ooh-la-la!

Always doodling. Even with chocolate.

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4:37 PM

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

*sigh*

Life's like this.
Everyone takes me for granted.
Just another shadow in the dark.
No one cares about my feelings.
Getting so used to it.
Maybe I should stop feeling then things would be fine.
Why can't anyone see when I'm upset?
Stupid kid. I hate him. Childish freaking cocky bastard.

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6:32 PM

Thursday, September 9, 2010

You will be very good to me...

Audisea has better songs than redbana.
I'm bored in KL. Stupid US visa.
Happy or sad? Happiness is a choice.
I choose to be happy.
No reason to be sad. No one's feeling sad for you.
I'll be happy now and forever.
I love me.

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12:23 AM

Monday, September 6, 2010

Sigh...

I keep dialing the numbers but I cannot call.
I'm gonna wait. :D
Just another 57 days to go. I will call.
Maybe I can cut it down by 2 days and call on the 1st of November.

But by then I would've already missed the 2 most important dates.
I'm not cut out for this.

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10:40 AM

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Rants...

I can rant here because I know no one reads it anyway.
I'm depressed again. I'm sad.
I don't know why.

I just want to cry. I just want to continue crying.
I want to sleep and never wake up.
I don't want to do anything other than sleep.

I've been wasting my past few days playing audiSEA.
When I talk it makes me slightly happier.
But when no one talks to me or when I'm alone at night.
I can't stop crying. Maybe it's that time of the month again.

I'm just tired. I hate relationships.
I hate what it does to me.
I don't want a boyfriend.
I don't want a relationship.
I want to be alone.
I want to be left alone.

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12:14 AM

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Tiny bits of happiness~

Today Jit Huat being a kind soul gave me his pendrive loaded with tons of crap.
In that pile of junk, there it was! AUDITIONSEA INSTALLER!
Lol! So i extracted it into my computer. Still patching.
Hopefully it works.
There were some error messages which I reluctantly read and completely ignored.
Even after so much help my computer is stubborn on not letting me play.

Old men are so funny. *reminisce about Kay Hock being a weirdo* Lol!
I cooked pasta - cheese and cream for lunch. Just finished it and gawd am I full.
Watching Spongebob Squarepants a definite classic. I'll never grow tired of this cartoon.

Bio lab session was boring as shyt. My teammies don't do work. Well they did a bit.
At least some of them tried to do something. -.-"
Unlike a certain someone who did nothing and just act cute.
Sometimes I really can't stand her but people will probably think I'm jealous.
Lol! I won't ever be jealous of any Korean shytasses.
They just aren't worth the time. Then again a lot of people aren't worth the time. *shrugs*

Oh well. Time to clean up and do laundry. Toodles!

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2:03 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Life seems so surreal sometimes...

And at others, it seems like a nightmare.

Of a philosopher

Like calm waves of the oceans and colours of the rainbow,
Life seems serene, tranquil, beautiful, in fact perfect,
But like the rainbow it shines after the rain, -
And the sea which suffers through storms or hurricanes,
Life isn’t perfect, I’m not perfect, -
It takes a human being to feel hurt, pain, sorrow, grief,
Or happiness or love or warmth,
It takes a person with more than eyes, more than a heart, more than a soul,
To put these feelings into words,
To touch the hearts of people who can only see or listen, -
Who can only feel like any ordinary human being.

by Lynn

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10:15 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Tired...

I'm pissed at a lot of things.
FML. So tired at everything.

Going to get my scalp treated soon.
My scar too.
Getting my jab today.
I hope I don't feel sick after it. -.-"

I look sick. My skin's very pale.
I totally need to go out in the sun sometimes.
Going to jio Clayton out for a day at the museum or something.

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8:05 AM

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

A heart is a very complex organ...

Relationship - View it as:
'relation' - a bond
'ship' - something that sinks if it is badly built.

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision.
At other times, I know I did.

When I look back at a lot of things, I know I'm right.
But my heart tells me no.

I ask myself whether I normally score better in exams using my heart or my brain.
Then I've found the answer.

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12:24 PM

Monday, August 16, 2010

I haven't updated in so long...

Been quite happy up till now.
Maybe I'm still happy but I haven't found that itty bit of happiness lately.
Don't know what to say. Don't know what to write.

Brain lag.
Been too long since I seriously blogged.
I guess I only blog when I'm depressed. {OR REALLY, REALLY, REALLY HAPPY! - which is very rare}

I kind of forgot to say Happy Birthday to Leslie.
He kind of forgot to say it to me too.

I also bought a present that I don't know what to do with now.
I'll probably give it to someone else for their birthday.
It's a really expensive gift though.
Wonder who's the lucky guy. Lol!

I'm depressed. I wish you could talk to me.
Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever.
I guess today I wish I could sleep forever.

Something interesting happened though.
Yesterday I ate a maggot.
Seriously... It was gross. But uh... It was accidental.
I'll never do it again.

I'm just crapping. I'm still slightly bitter.
NEVER FORGET! BUILD A BRIDGE, CRY A RIVER AND GET OVER IT! :D
I'll be okay soon. (V) Cause I know I just haven't found the right one.
I will. One day.

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10:10 PM